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[22 Feb 2005|10:02pm] [ mood | hurt ] [ music | gavin degraw, more then anyone ] ive decided not to go on aim as much anymore. im on way too much. and all i do for hrs, like literally, while like watching tv is scroll up and down my buddy list looking at pf's and ams. and its frusturating when like i realize how much more i could do with my time, then well that. well anyways today sucked. nothing went right.. at all. like everything that possibly could go wrong, did. and now since all of its been piling up on top of eachother im like about to go insane. and im so mad at myself because im sick of not going after things when given the chance, because like now, i sit here regretting it. and its happened before, so you'd think id learn from my mistakes. but oh no, of course not. and that probably makes no sense what so ever, but its kind of hard to go in detail when im writing in something that the entire world can see. whatever. hopefully tommorow will be better. i would love it if tommorow is better. so yea ive decided to do track this spring. like im def. doing it..i think. the only thing that means, if i do, is that i play less tennis a week. like ill still be able to play at least 9 hrs/week, which is still a lot, and more then most. but like as of now i play like fifteen, and thats loosing a lot of time. but i want to do track. like really want to. and it keeps me in shape. ive been running everyday lately and it feels good to be getting back into the state i once was. ....every time i try to grasp for air i am smothered in despair it's never over, over seems ill never wake from this nightmare, i let out a silent pray let it be over, over... 4 dance on their tip toes.

[17 Feb 2005|10:39pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | meaning, gavin degraw ] hey everybody!! hmm this past weekedn was fun! friday went shopping con mi amiga, brittney and then the next night was danis sweet sixteen. it was awesome! i had such a good time. and i got a flower :D. that made me happy. dani looked so pretty, and tone adjustment played, they were really good. and then sunday i forget what i did.. hmmm. but my weekend was fun and hopefully this upcomming one will be just as good, considering its gonna be a three day weekend. we did our schedules for next yr. as of right now im taking: ap american lit J us history 1 j pre calc with trig j physics 4j spanish 1 german sociology and j forensic science.. idk tho that might change. there were sev. other electives i wanted to take. we'll see.. ahh i cant wait for summer! i want it soo badly. krissi's binder reminded me of it. the winter times makes me remember how much i love it. as of right now my mom and lil sis are out in cali. and they said i could hv gone too if it wasn't for the fact that i, unlike my sister, hv school on thursday and friday. ill be going out there and looking at colleges over the summer, when i visit for my cuz's wedding...which only adds to the list of reasons why this summer is going to be amazing,and i cant wait for it. fire escape friday. is anyone going??? ....situation candlelight enough to see the bits around you but its not very bright stare at a memory you, through the grapevine, heard the truth it's good to learn from your mistakes but that only works in youth... 5 dance on their tip toes.

[08 Feb 2005|07:32pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | john mayor-daughters ] yay this weekend was fun! friday me and em, mostly em, threw a surprise party for lauren h, for her bday at gabe's. even though it was very last min planniing, it was still lots of fun, and i believe we shocked her. like i dont think she new wat our real intentions were. and then afterwards we all went over to chealsea's and that was fun too. thenn on sat., lauren k had a sleepover for her sweet 16. ahh i had such a good time. i luv that girl! and then on sunday i just had tennis, but was stuck home for the superbowl cuz of hmwrk. im happy the patriots won tho! i was rooting for them. but now its tuesday and this week is going by soooooo slowly. i think i might go insane. it feels like a thursday. i wish it was thursday. cuz then the next day would be friday, and i cant wait for this weekend! dani's is this weekend! tho i still need to go get shoes to match my dress, cuz i dont own a pair that do. i went out today before tennis, shoe shopping that is, and didn't find a pair. oh well. tennis was fun tho! lol, and only em knows why! ahh i luv that class. unfortunately im gonna hv to miss it next week cuz my mom and sister are takn a trip out to cali, and im stuck home. im so jelous! ill be freezn my ass off, why there like relaxn in the sun. i think im going out to cali in the summer tho, which i cant wait for, and the demkins might meet up with us like half way through our trip. and thatd be awesome. 1 dance on their tip toes.

[31 Jan 2005|03:18pm] woahh ive been supper busy lately, basically cuz of midterms. i hvn't had the chance to update. but yea as much as i hate studying for midterms, i really dont mind them cuz u get to go home super early and maybe even go in late. soo ive been able to actually do stuff afterschool then just play tennis. tho im not complaining, i love tennis. but yea like today, i went shopping, even tho i ended up gettting zip. i hate shopping with my mom, she's so critical. like she doesnt like half the stuff i do and vice versa. so yea, i rather just go with friends, its more fun that way too. i need to go shopping, but i can't really expect to go and get stuff until i get money. right now i have only like twenty dollars. i use to have sooo much more when i was little, but that quickly disappeared when i had to start buying my own clothes. i've decided that i really need to get back into shape. i don't think ive been THIS out of shape since like fourth grade. today in tennis i was dead after doing outwide forhands and dropshots. i use to run more in one day when i did track then i do in a week of tennis. even my coaches have told me i have to get faster on the court. so ive decided to run on the treadmill today, something i hvn't done in months. and i also need to cut down my junk food intake/day. like my eating habits have not changed at all since track. i still eat the same calories, which is why from like now since eigth grade ive gained sooo much weight. my mom even has pointed it out. she says i need to loose it. soo i will start to run again. blech. well im procrascinating studying for math, and came across this when i was lookn' through people's lj's. tell me what you think: what do u think about my clothes? what do u think about my music? would you lie to make me feel better? when & how did we meet? how have i affected u? what do u think of me? whats the fondest memory you have of me? how long do u think we will be friends? do u have a crush on me? would u kiss me? physically what stands out? emotionally what stands out? on a scale of 1-10 how hot am i? give me a nickname & explain why you picked it? what was ur first impression? do u still think that way about me now? what do u think my weakness is? what makes me happy? what makes me sad? what reminds you of me? ever wanted to tell me something but couldnt? if so what is it ? do u think i could kill someone? am i ever annoying? do you love me? 7 dance on their tip toes.

it's been a long time.. [17 Jan 2005|11:58am] [ mood | lazy ] yea, its been quite a while since ive updated. but this weekend was amazing so far. i loooooveeeeeeee long weekends. they make me so happy. and this one has been awesome. Friday, i went shopping con mi amiga (sam) and we bought stuff. i got myself a pretty dress for dani's. and then we went and got smoothies, and then she slept over and we watched tv shows. it was fun, and a nice way to start off my weekend. and then i had tennis sat and then afterwards i went over lauren's house with malz, chris, ian, noah, brooke, tiff, and carly. that was a lot of fun too. we tried watching bourne ientity, but it was suppperr confusing. so yea i didn't get that movie. it looked like it could be really good tho..but nyways after me and lauren's longg countdown to em's bday, sunday finally came and i had an amazing time. id say it was by far the best bday party ive ever been to. it was so much fun. we all met at em's house and took the gillete train to summit then to penn where we met our pary planner people and took this limo bus thing to our first clue on our scavenger hunt. that was to H&M where we all were givn' forty dollars to buy 70's outfits. and tehnn our next clue was to go to rockafeller center and go ice skating. that made my life. ive allllwayyys wanted to do that. always. it was so much fun. and tehn afterwards our third clue was to go to dylan's candy shop and fill up lil houses with tons of candy and get our make ups done. after that we put on our seventy's outfits and went to the hard rock cafe. we looked so outta place-but thats ok! it was fun. but we went to our own priv. room and randy jones from the village people-the cowboy-came to meet us! it was really exciting. we learned the REAL way to do the YMCA. but yea it was lots of fun. and afterward we all slept over em's and we played mofia for a long time and then me em and krissi had the deepest convos everr. but i loved them. and then we put on jersey girl-ate more food and then fell asleep. but yea, now its monday and ihv tons of hmwrk to do cuz i didn't start and i hv tennis in bout an hr.so yea i best be going to go start some of it. latter. <3. 8 dance on their tip toes.

[02 Jan 2005|10:09pm] [ mood | indescribable ] awesome new years eve. i had sooo much fun. first i went to em's house and we danced around to some music and played around with her funky make up. and then we headed off to adnrew's party. that was fun too. i ate quite a lot. a lot a lot. and then afterwards dani and sam "slept over". we went for a walk to a nearby play set and took loads of pictures at two in the morning. and then we came back to my house ate chees cake, talked for hrs and then watched and learned tae boe. afterwards we played extreeme fib finder. yeaa. that was fun. even tho like only dani could figure out to work it. and then afterwards we watched scary movie 3....but we turned it off once it became too scary for us. yea so we didn't end up sleeping til like 630 and we woke up at 130. im so happy tho cuz ive hung out with people who i hvnt tt in months htis break, and that makes me happy cuz ive missed them. then the next night i had to babysit and now its sunday and tommorow is school...unfoturnatley cuz i still hv hmwrk to do that im still procrascinating on by watching friends...still. leave me some love 4 dance on their tip toes.

[29 Dec 2004|10:52pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | ashlee simpson-pieces of me ] ahh i cant believe its already wed. :/. breaks almost over...i hv so much hmwrk to do. christams was awesome. i got lots of good gifts and spent it at the demkins. haha. we're such a warm loving family...the majority of the time we pick on sue by telling how she should hv added another panneling to her drapes adn that the nyc skyline should hang in the dinning room. haha we'll hang it ourselves caitlin! thenn we watched the first four episodes of the oc. WAT AN AMAZING SHOW. i lovveee it. its a masterpiece. Apparently many other people agree cuz i went to costco and sam goody and it was sold out at both places. and sam asked the people at sam goody when they planned on getting another shipment and they said thursday cuz the manufacturere didn't make enought. :/. so instead i got the second season of friends. i really wanted the first..but they didn't hv it. but yea, im not officially broke..and in debt, cuz ive spent all of my money on finally printing out the digital pics that ive been dying to print since i got my camera, on ribbons or my hair, dinenr/movie, and the dvd tv show. sooo yea. ill be having to suck up to my parents quite a bit these next couple weeks, cuz if im not nice to them i dont get my allowance. but yeaa... on sunday there was an eigth grade reunion with sam, britt, kel , sash, and me. it was a lot of fun- i bought em's bday present, godiva chocolate, and a cute skirt and it was really nice catching up..but it was also really depressing cuz i realized how much we all drifted since eigth grade-and all of them were my closest friends that yr. i miss them dearly. but yea we just shopped ate and then ewnt back to my house. then the next day i went to the movies/ dinner with dani, sam, andrew, bryan, ian, and arielle. nd afterwards we slept over sam's house where i locked myself in her br cuz she decided the best way to keep me awake was to hump me. lolol. but yea we saw meet the focers at the movies, and we attempted to watch dodgeball at sam's..but didn't get past ten minutes. but yea i was soo happpy cuz i hvn't done anything w. dani in AGES. i missed that girl. then the next day i bumed around my house ALL day. and then today i went to costo for my pics and michales for the ribbon and then i cleaned my room and then caitlin called and we decided to go see the movie spanglish in the summit theatre, and then afterwars we went to dinner. it was quite a lot of fun and the movie was really good. i liked, even tho its not ur typical adam sandler movie. and then afterwards we went back to her house where we played ping pong---or tried to play ping pong. haha. YOU THOUGHT I MISSED IT...BUT I DID'T!!!and thennn we played dream phone and reminissed how that was both of our favorite game when we were young and how we would always hope to get certain carboard faced guys. lol. annd thenn we watched napolian dynamite or tried to cuz we ended up talking a bunch. but it was still a really funny movie from wat i did see. it was one of those rediculously stupid movies..that u just end up laughing and thost most random stuff. but yea i had fun. im free tommorow, so if anyone wanted to get together let me kno. leave me some love. on their tip toes.

[24 Dec 2004|11:47pm] [ mood | hungry ] IT'S XMAS EVE!!! woohoo.even tho it doesn't really feel like it. but it is and tommorow i get presents cuz ive been a good girl. ;). well today i slept til like 1:30-which i hvnt done in ages and then i went to the mall with my sister to get our lil sis a gift. and then i came home and just watched xmas movies and listened to xmas cds and wrapped presents. so yea its been a good day. but im bored now so here's a quiz i found: BASICS… x: full name~ kelly alexandra graziadei x: piercings~ my ears x: tattoos~ nope x: height~ 5'6..i think, or at least the last time i checked x: hair color~ darkish brown x: length~ kinda on the short side...but im trying to let it grow out again x: siblings~ two sisters:amanda and courtney LAST... x: movie you rented~ white chicks with britt and sam x: movie you bought~ mean girls x: song you listened to~ 3am by matchbox 20 x: song that was stuck in your head~ over and over again by nelly and tim mcgraw x: cd you bought~gavin degraw and john mayor x: cd you listened to~ absolut hits from like a thousand yrs ago. x: person you've called~ my daddy x: person that's called you~ my dad x: tv show you've watched~newlyweds DO... x: you wish you could live somewhere else~ well i would absolutely love to live in southern california cuz thats my fav. place in the entire world...but id have to bring all my friends w/ me x: you think about suicide~no x: you believe in online dating~ sure, i actually kno of people who are getting married by it..so i mean if it works for them then y not? x: others find you attractive~ uh thats not really for me to decide x: you want more piercings~ yea, i want another on my upper ear and i think the belly is ccute x: you drink~ no x: you do drugs~ never x: you smoke~ nope x: you like cleaning~ not really, but once i get started-i like get into it x: you like roller coasters~i love them now! i went on my first this yr cuz i was always too scared to do so. x: you write in cursive or print~i mix it up. FOR OR AGAINST... x: long distance relationships~ well im not against it, but i think if i were ever put in that situation that itd suck majorly x: using someone~ i think thats terrible x: killing people~ thats a thousand times more terrible x: teenage smoking~ i would never-i think its gross x: premarital sex~ im not against it, but i really respect those who rather wait. x: driving drunk~ i would never in a million years drive drunk. HAVE YOU... x: ever lied to someone~yes..but nvr anything .ike really big x: ever been in a fist fight~ yepp haha x: ever been arrested~ nopee NUMBER... x: of drugs taken illegally?~none x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?~ 2 x: of people I consider my enemies?~ i dont really hv any x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?~ i never counted but a bunch from tennis and this play i did. x: of scars on my body?~ didn't evr count those either DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... x: funny~ i hv my moments, but usually people find me funny when im not trying to me x: hot~ hahaha no. x: friendly~ yes x: amusing~ sure x: ugly~ i hope not x: lovable~ of course hehe x: pessimistic~ depends on situation x: optimistic~ same as above x: caring~ very x: sweet~ i can be x: dorky~ i def hv my dorky moments RANDOM… x: Spell your first name back wards~ yllek x: The story behind your screen name~ hmm the sweetest thing was an awesome movie, nd i needed numbers cuz that by itself was already taken. x: Where do you live?~ warren x: 4 words that sum you up~ ah idk... thats hard. DESCRIBE YOUR… x: Wallet~ the one britt got me last yr for xmas x: Hairbrush~ its pnk nd blacak x: Toothbrush~ i think its orange and green. but its one of those electric ones. x: Jewelery worn daily~ the pink earings i got with em at express, my guess watch, and i wear various necklaces nd braclets x: Pillow cover~ pink/creme with flowers x: Coffee cup~ ive never had coffee. x: Favorite top~ idk i like all my shirts....thats why i get em. x: CD in stereo right now~ i hv five in my stereo: absolut hits, maroon 5, gavin degraw,john mayor, and the mix sam made me for xmas x: Make up right now~ none WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)… x: In my mouth~ saliva? x: You doing after this~ sleeping x: Talking to~ no one at this particular moment x: Eating~ nothing x: If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?~ i could never murder nyone x: Is next to you~ my window x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month~ XMAS TOMMOROW!!! and then andrew's new years party x: Something that you are deathly afraid of ~ sharks and tornados x: Do you like candles~ i luv em x: Do you like hot wax~ yea its fun x: Do you like incense~ yea the smell good x: Do you like the taste of blood~ nope but my friend caitlin does, she use to dip her pretzels in it whenever she got a cut x: Do you believe in love~ definitely x: Do you believe in soul mates~ yesss x: Do you believe in love at first sight~ not at all..its too easy and u only get to meet skin deep.i believe u hv to take a deeper look. x: Do you believe in forgiveness~ of course. x: Do you believe in God~ yes...but im skeptical bout a bunch of stuff x: What do you want done with your body when you die~ im not sure..nvr really thought bout it. x: Who is your worst enemy?~ i dont think i hv any enemies. x: If you could have any animal for a pet~ either a chimpanzee or a pig x: What is the latest you've ever stayed up~ all night. x: Ever been to Belgium?~ nope..cant say i hv x: What's your favorite coin?~ anyone works for me...its money. x: What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?~ san francisco, nyc, los angelos, san diego, or boston x: Whats something that you wish people would understand?~ that no one is bettert then anyone else...socially. x: What's something you wish you could understand better?~ a bunch of stuff. x: Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?~ caitlin nd kelly x: Something you want to make happen for tomorrow?~ that i get lots of good presents underneath the xmas tree well im off to bed. goodnight everyone! and merry christmas cuz now its 12:19. :D. 4 dance on their tip toes.

[22 Dec 2004|03:26pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | more than anyone-gavin degraw ] hey everybody! ive been so busy this week so i hvn't had the chance to update. friday was tennis and fire escape/friendlys and then sat was tennis and then babysitting job and then sunday i worked on my meh proj all day with kristin til i had to go to tennis and then after that i came home adn wrote up the report. yea but like idk how my entire class is going to be able to present before thursday cuz so far its like 1 group/day and there are a lot more then four groups and then like my teacher's last day is tommorow. sooooo hopefually my partner and i wont hv to go. *crosses fingers* but yea and then this entire week ive had sooo much hmwrk. like i still hv so much to do tonight. i hate school. and yesturday i had a tennis tourney and got my assed kiced 6-0 6-1. the girl i played tho was seated six and pretty good so its not like i really had much of a chance. but it just so happens on that day i had an extremely off day-it was pretty embarrasing. but yea im so happy tommorow is our last day before break. i cant wait til break. tommorow we excahnge secret santas at arielle's! and then its christmas eve and then its christmas!! ahh im so excitied. i LOVE christmas. its my favorite holiday. and im so happy cuz like this yr we're goign to the demkins instead of like staying home nad just hv my gdma and uncle over. so thatll be fun. and then the day after i was planning on getting together with kelly b, sash, britt and sam for an eighth grade reunion cuz like we hvnt done anything together in ages. i miss those guys so much. so i really hope that works out. but yea other then that i hv nothing planned for the rest of the week. so if anyone wants to get together let me kno..cuz i wont be doing nything sinc elike most of my tennis is canceled...... <3. on their tip toes.

[15 Dec 2004|06:14pm] [ mood | blah ] today went by soo slowly. just like this week. i kept thinking it was thursay- but no. :/. i cant wait til break. i need one! i hv so much work. i got my mid makring prd grade for mammen and right now im managing a 76- thats like 20 somthn points lower then my final grade for the quater. i hate jane eyre and julius casear. i really SHOULD do that packet that was due two weeks ago...yea i hv a tendency to procrascinate just a tad. but otherwise my other classes were pretty good-i think. Well i only got one other back and that was chem and i got a 91 somehow. But im quite happy bout that. im not complainin. and em sadly wasnt in school today. i missed her dearly. but as a plus -mrs. kippel wasn't here. thank god, i didn't study for that quiz cuz kristine came over last night and we worked on meh..for like half the time. and i found out today that mrs. koppel was leavn' after break. like i had no clu but somehow most of my class knew. i wonder when she was planning on telling us. hmm. but yea not much happened today. quite boring id say. oh and fire escape friday! im excited...that is if i can go. i might be stuck babysitting-but im almost sure i can get out of it. i heard centralside is performing songs from their new cd. woohoo. leave me some love. <3. 3 dance on their tip toes.

[13 Dec 2004|03:59pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | waching full house ] wow this weekend was AWESOME. friday me and britt took the train into penn station for jingleball. and despite the fact thatlike the stairway to the theatre was right behind us, we walked in circles about a thousand times cuz we had no clu how to get to madison square garden. but JUST IN CASE some muggers tried to get a hold of us- we had her pepper spray. hehe. and thenn we arrived there like an hr early but was very much occupied by the whole load of free food that was placed in the box. but the concert was amazing. i liked it so much better then zootopia. like the performences were so fit. my favorite was probably destiny child and i loved how like switchfoot and good charlotte like went and sung in the audience. but maroon 5 was really good too, like i love their songs. hmm hilary duff, ashley simpson, ryan cabrera, kelly clarkson, jojo, vanessa carlton, and gwen stefani was also there. and britt def. called that whole special guest thing. and gavin degraw, jess mcartny, lindsey lohan, bowling for soup were guests. and an hr and a half later-due to masive traffic, em and sam came to the concert. then afterwards,me, em, britt and sam took a cab to get to the ferry to take to the parking lot where em's mom car was. and when we finally did get back to my house we put in when harry met sally and i feel asleep right after they were talking bout how its impossible to hv great sex with a guy by the name of Sheldon-great movie. and then sat i had tennis and then aferwards i went out to dinner to celebrate dorkushlamorkus's sixteenth birthday. we went to get thai food. It was quite delivious and dont worry sam i wont hurt u with the unexistent fork that was on the table. Then afterwards we went back to her house and talked and me and sam attempted to steal chocolate chips but wasn't that succesful cuz like tuna fish fell over the floor and then we went right down after it cuz the floor WaS waxed. And then we watched white chick's and attempted to watch envy-which i didnt get far in at all. Then on Sunday, I went to my second cousin's house and spent the whole day tehre. and now its monday and surprisingly i actually had a really good day-which doesn't usually happen on mondays. But, my math quiz was cancled, gym was a study hall, watched a movie in lang and lunch was HIlArIOUS. lol i def. got my ab work out that prd. but yea and today tennis was cancled and my parents are out all night. whoohooo. so ya right now im bumming around watching full house and writing on this thing. and maybe ill update this live jornal more then my blurty. but cant keep any promises. leave some love por favor. 1 dance on their tip toes.

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